"Salvation" is a personal essay by Langston Hughes. This short essay describes the author's attempt to experience the religious ecstasy that others in his church experienced. His aunt, for instance, told him of her experience:
when you were saved you saw a light and something happened to you inside!. . .She said you could see and hear and feel Jesus in your soul. I believed her.
When the narrator, who is Hughes himself, goes to a revival meeting, he expects to share this experience. The preacher gives a "wonderful rhythmical sermon," and invites the young people to commit their lives to Jesus. The congregation sings as several young people rush to the alter.
The next line is the one-sentence paragraph that you are asking about, and it is the pivotal point in the story.
Still I kept waiting to see Jesus.
Until this line, we fully expect from the title and the preceding narration that the author is describing the night he dedicated his life to Jesus. However, when we read the above line, we know immediately that the narrator does not feel the same as the others in the church, and the story will go in a very different direction. He feels the pressure to join the others but he hesitates. He has not seen Jesus. It is important to note that "see" is italicized here. Did the narrator take his aunt too literally? Does he think he will actually see a vision of Jesus? Is he an immature thirteen year old? Or is he being honest about his feelings? He cannot feel the others' religious fervor. Now we know that this story is not about religious conversion. It is about maturity or the lack of it. It is about questioning the beliefs of others. It is perhaps about a permanent alienation from the church, even if this alienation is only a private one.
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